
There have been countless afternoons that I’ve spent shivering in my living room while doing school work and client work with my AC blasting at 60 looking out at the warm sun wondering why I feel so disconnected. Why the world feels more empty and cold. So, I’m making some big changes.
I am making gentle shifts to heal that loneliness and the parts of me that feel stuck in an ice box. So here are my new brave choices: I am transferring to a new school that I can actually visit and walk around on campus. This is so big and brave for me. I have loved my time with SNHU but I am more excited than I can tell you to be joining the students at UNC Greensboro this Fall.
I’ve found a new church family I am so excited to be a part of. I know that religion is not for everyone but it is something that has kept me on the right path for most of my life. With this COVID-19 pandemic, I really have needed that grounding in my faith. But it’s time to go back in person and to a church family that makes me feel like I am home!
My weight loss journey has not gone so well so far. However, I ordered a Food Sensitivity test online and the results were a little baffling and may explain why I am struggling so much. I am to reduce as much inflammation in the body as I can. This means I’ll be cutting out several foods and, as sad that feels, I have a sneaking suspicious my body will love me for this.
I’ve finally begun EMDR for my trauma. It’s finally time. I’ve fought it but I’m so ready to let the pain and sadness of my past go. There’s so much to live for out there. I’m ready to grow a garden of goodness and peace where my scars have sat only partially healed. Always just a little bit unwell and not sealed. I’m ready to bury my sorrows in a way that honors them so I can stop carrying them with me everywhere I go. I will keep the good memories and set down the grief.
I’ll be headed to the coast this weekend for the first time here in North Carolina. I am so excited to see the ocean again. I want to feel my toes in the warm sand and to hear the sound of the waves crashing. I want to feel the joy of seeing the world as it comes back together again.
What are your cravings for 2021? What can you do to feed your soul this summer?
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