We understand when people are distressed. I can smell the endorphins.

By John Testore

I suffer for others and I’m always misunderstood for that.

People think I want to always be in control.

In fact it is my way of prioritizing. I know I’m good at prioritizing.

I don’t like acting on instinct. If I know I can do something on a better time, I prefer to wait. Like going to a concert…. people would get mad at me! In turn I get mad. And so my neighbors get madder at my madness! Vicious circle.

I want to be left alone when panicking. People would scold at me more instead!

All autistics know the situation all too well I know…

We want to protect you! Don’t counterattack and we’ll cool in few minutes!

We understand when people are distressed.

I can smell the endorphins.

That will result in rocking and mourning on my side requiring undue sedation.

Add a nurse as a wife and you’ll have the full picture…

My takeaway is henceforth consequential: Respect Autistic Boundaries.

Our boundaries are different. In fact I wouldn’t talk of boundaries but triggers.

I’m an extremely calm, patient, sociable, altruistic person. Only a handful of triggers can cause me to dissociate, like impulsiveness, lack of planning or change in routine.

I can adjust with time and understanding.

My name is John Testore and I m a British-Italian man married to a Japanese lady in Japan. I m a former Medical student.

I was diagnosed with Autism and ADHD in Med-school causing me to drop after my third year and join the Ambulance Service as paramedic.